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The Diving Bell And the Butterfly

christianbboy — Sat, 20 Sep 2008 05:28:13 +0000

The Diving Bell And The Butterfly, by Jean-Dominique Bauby. An autobiography recalling his recollections, recording his very thoughts. A former editor of the ELLE magazine, Bauby was struck down with a stroke, resulting in the “Locked-in syndrome”, was trapped within a diving bell, with no other ways of comminication save his left eyelid. But with this protective skin, wrote a 139-page long book recording the thoughts in his mind. Like a butterfly, he was free from physical bondage, unbound from bed-riddance, explores the ends of imagination and timeless hope. A book showcasing jadedness of human existence, rich in hope for the disabled, yet nonlacking in on its timeless message of hope, love, and the will to live – the efforts, determination, and perserverance of he and the team is nonpareil. Albeit his seemingly hopeless condition, this book is saturated with torrid passion for life.

switching back

christianbboy — Mon, 19 Mar 2007 16:31:37 +0000

switching back to christian-bboy.blogspot.com

cos i felt that its easier 2 b lively there! as in, express myself n all tat.

jeahh.

i will leave this blog standing here, for the older posts, older memories, older times, milestones in life. gd times n bad ones.

this, being the 149th post. byebye christianbboy.wordpress.com

c’mon and break me

christianbboy — Sun, 18 Mar 2007 13:17:13 +0000

the ones i love the most in the world, officially killed and burned me. the ones i gave my hearts and energies to have turned against me. u think this is the biggest suffering in the world? you think i will never get up again?

no, because i’ve experienced just a fraction of the pain my God did.he had all disciples leaving him, 1 directly betrayed him, another refused to acknowledge him. only 1 was by the cross as he hung there and died. i cannot understand the compassion and love he had for us, when until now, as his “children” we turned against him so many times. As our creator, he loves us so much that he is willing to save even the people who hate him most. If you think what i went through is crazy and too much, it is not. because it did not kill me. it killed my spirit. but my soul is with God and my spririt will be restored. This thing will not put me down. i am still the same yuan hao at 21st dec. if you think that i should stop so to prevent myself from getting hurt, i tell you i am not. because true love never dies. love for friends, love for even enemies, or “enemies”. God its stil the same christian you’re seeing up there in heaven, on 21st dec 2006.

A part of me is shattered. So much of me in smithereens, not just of what happened to me, but what happened to the people i loved the most.

But life goes on. I’m still going on. I’m not gonna stop what i came here to do. I’m not gonna quit what i wanna do for God. There’s still a road ahead. The phone booth is long gone. There’s still a fire ahead. There’s still fire in me. I’m not gonna stop just cos i got several gashes. Synergiz gave me what i most needed.

i think i’m gonna revert to christian-bboy.blogspot.com, cos i can express better.

c’mon and break me.

football > white elephant. lol

christianbboy — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 08:35:49 +0000

i think being a football, is better than being a white elephant.

man, does it take me that long to realize that? lol. i thot i did. i just realised again. lol.

football

christianbboy — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 17:24:40 +0000

i just felt that,….

damned frustrated over everything. that i’ve been treated like……

hopeful through the day, hopeful for the time we can talk, but it never changed……

i’m nothing.

i just felt that i’m a loser and a football.

God is good.

christianbboy — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 14:22:42 +0000

I looked at my fone diary.

date: 11 feb 2007, when interschool floorskills was held.

It brought back memories. So much so much.

“Be strong and work. For i am with you. My spirit remains with you. Do not fear. the glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house”

I was in church listening to a message about the book of haggai. I’ve reflected. Everything will be made new again, like freedom and spring.

And then i remembered last week’s sermon “do not give up, because God sees the end. Hold on, because you cannot see the end, God does, his plans are great for you.”

And i was reminded time and again that so many times i feel lik laying it down. I’m still bboying, I’m still a christian. I’m still holding on. Not hanging on. I still have life in me. I am still who i am.

God is good.

ow

christianbboy — Fri, 09 Mar 2007 17:10:24 +0000

ah shit! my elbow’s hurting like shit when i type this, i can even feel my pulse through the pain man shit! but jus feel lyk blogging 2dae so i…. yea..

im alr missing 5.8 kingz. We don’t have a strong class spirit. But im already missing 5.8. After school today, we were all playing card games and having so much fun. I never did much with 5.8, but i’m missing it already. I don’t know why too.

5.8 kingz, i miss you guys! i din knoe tat 1 day i would say that about my class. haha.

ouch wa shit damn pain i gtg

loser.

christianbboy — Thu, 08 Mar 2007 12:47:56 +0000

loser. thats me. im a loser. no not yet.

im gonna be a loser. i wanna be a loser. my life is a life of being a loser. I wanna live a life showing unconditional love, concern and sincerity. No fake face, another facade, nor another scheme and tactic for ambitions.Won’t be 2 persons.I hate a double life, a faceoff. I’m gonna be a person with a face. yea, im not surprised if i get laughed at and mocked all the time. people will call me stupid, senseless, over-loyal, too committed, blindly-accepting, over-helpful, even faking to be helpful, faking a face in front of them so to make myself look good.

go on and call me a loser.

because im gonna be one.

im gonna have nothing to prove. i wanna have nothing to prove and so nothing to lose.

when friends walk other ways, we’ve got each other.

christianbboy — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 08:41:47 +0000

i feel like switching back to christian-bboy.blogspot.com

no one has any idea how much it burns

But i’ll still hold on, i’ll wait 4 u.

i can’t do it no more

christianbboy — Thu, 01 Mar 2007 13:53:20 +0000

i’m gonna stop this partial-person i’m putting up and showing.yea, i’m battered, but i’m still the same yuan hao. Still the same Wong Yuan Hao you guys ever knew of. I’m not gonna do this shit no more.

no more

This face is gonna come off. cos the user can’t stand it anymore.it does not backfire. but it takes love away. and the user hates the absence of love.

Why, that after I’ve been set free by God, during youth camp, and using some really golden person, that i never fell to that sin again, should I keep myself in bondage again and again when i can be truly, free?Why do I keep doing it to myself, although its totally not called for?

I can’t keep this false face, falsehood up. no, not can’t. I don’t want to, cos i can’t stand it anymore. cos i hate what it’s doing.